I want to help you get unstuck and move forward. Your failures in life have caused your mind to create a memory loop of depression and rely on intuition of what you might fail in the future. A lot of great people wasted their lives even at the peak of their successes doing the same thing. Anthony Bourdain, Chester Bennington, these are just two of the recent famous people who decided end their lives after going through depression. A lot of people are encountering this very problem now. Various reports show that suicide rates are at all time high all over the world.
I'm not a psychologist (I'm actually a Retired Accountant) but I encountered depression and anxiety after failing my first business endeavor. I got immersed in the trap of social media: posting and sharing the beauty of the island life, filming and uploading drone videos, the best sunset photos and meeting great and beautiful people, all of these are seemingly great indicators of a joyful life but unfortunately it was not and it's like a whack in the head of a baseball bat. I'm drinking alcohol almost everyday for a year and got my immune system to its lowest, resulting to a ton of skin diseases all over my body. It destroyed my confidence and altered my behavior. The worst part of it I failed to take responsibility early in to the process and rationalized every single problem. The chase for profits and recoginition became a reason for my "ultimate failure". I have gone to the process and I know how it feels to get lost and feel stuck. The experience of crashing and burning became essential to the concepts you are reading now.
Your story is for sure different, but I am fortunate enough to have a chance to help you get "unstuck" through the methods I adapted to bring myself back to reality. Before I get to the details of, let's dive first on understanding why all of us fail in the first place.
the science behind failure